About Calmtopia
Our story, mission, and the team behind the meditation app
I didn't build Calmtopia because I'm a meditation expert.
I built it because I've lived through experiences that nearly broke me.
I live with Borderline Personality Disorder. I've had moments of intense panic where it felt like I was slipping away. I've shut down, disconnected, and gone through emotional storms where "just breathe" felt more like pressure than peace.
I've survived trauma and abuse in all forms by many people in my life. I've endured things that left me feeling unseen and unprotected. I've faced profound loss, including the heartbreaking death of my brother. And I'm also a mother to four beautiful children, one of which who is intellectually and developmentally delayed — a journey that's shaped my heart and resilience in countless ways.
A New Vision for Healing
Through everything, I kept asking:
Most meditation apps didn't speak to my experience. They wanted me to calm down instantly, to be still and centered — when my mind and body were anything but.
What I needed was comfort.
I needed soothing sounds.
Gentle guidance.
Emotional safety.
Not pressure to be perfect.
So I decided to build my own sanctuary.
Calmtopia is for those who've been through the unimaginable.
For the ones who feel deeply. Who fall apart.
Who survive.
Who heal — even if it takes time, and even if it doesn't look perfect.
Inside Calmtopia
Tools created from lived experience, not theory
Trigger Protection Songs
Specially designed sounds to help regulate and comfort during emotional distress, offering immediate support when you need it most.
Compassionate Mood Tracking
Track your emotional state without judgment, focusing on patterns and progress rather than perfection.
Raw, Real Affirmations
Honest words that acknowledge struggle while gently encouraging growth and self-compassion.
Pain to Paint Feature
Transform your journal entries into visual art, reflecting your emotions back to you in beauty and light.
Begin Your Journey
Find a space that understands the complexity of healing and meets you where you are.
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